The experience of repatriation to Armenia and rethinking loneliness in Sheila Paylan's essay

International lawyer and publicist Sheila Paylan shared her reflections on the experience of moving to Yerevan, seeking independence, and changing her attitude toward loneliness. In her column, as reported by EVN Report, the diaspora-born author described the transition from years of partnership unions and constant job changes within UN structures to a conscious life alone in the capital of Armenia.

Paylan noted that for most of her adult life, she avoided being in isolation, striving to fill her personal space with new acquaintances, including during her service in countries like Cambodia. However, this year she made the decision to focus on her own interests, internal development, and professional goals, giving up the pursuit of building a life around finding a romantic partner.

Environment and support in Yerevan

According to the author, moving to Armenia added a special dimension to the process of gaining independence that did not arise in other countries. Remote work in her Yerevan apartment allows her to maintain focus on projects for several days when necessary, while avoiding the oppressive feeling of isolation. The atmosphere of the Armenian capital provides a sense of belonging to a single community, where even a short walk down the street or a dialogue with neighbors quickly satisfies the need for social contact.

"Armenia gives me a sense of belonging without demanding my constant participation. I can disappear into my own world for days or leave for weeks, and when I return, my country and my people are still waiting for me with open arms," Paylan emphasized.

The author summarized that the ability to value one's own company does not mean denying love, but helps to distinguish genuine compatibility from the habit of seeking protection from the fear of being alone. Paylan called the ability to comfortably coexist with oneself the foundation for mature and harmonious relationships with the surrounding world.